A Psalm for the Womb of the World
O Lord of Light,
Thou who formed my spirit before the worlds were,
turn my heart again toward Thee.
In this dimmed and mortal realm,
teach me to see Thy hand in all things,
and to remember the glory from which I came.
Lift my eyes beyond the veil,
that I may walk as a child of promise—
learning the laws of love,
the patterns of eternity,
and the quiet whisper of Thy truth.
In the womb of this world,
shape my soul with charity,
temper my will with meekness,
and anchor my steps in Thy holy light.
For Thou art the Beginning and the Becoming,
the Breath within all living,
and the Light that leads Thy children home.
Scripture, Light, and the Telestial Matrix of Our Formation
Family, I speak this with reverence and with my heart bowed before the Lord. The scriptures have always testified of the pattern we are living in, and when we look at the universe through the laws of light and energy, we see the same testimony reflected back at us.
1. “All that openeth the matrix…”
"That thou shalt set apart unto the Lord all that openeth the matrix, and every firstling that cometh of a beast which thou hast; the males shall be the Lord’s."
In the holy record, the matrix is the womb—the place where something begins, forms, and prepares to be born into a higher order of life.
That is the pattern of mortality.
This telestial world is a matrix‑womb, a place of formation.
We are not yet in the real world.
We are in the preparation realm.
Scripture confirms this:
▪︎ “We see through a glass, darkly”
▪︎ “It is sown a natural body; it is raised a
spiritual body”
▪︎ “Eye hath not seen… the things which God
hath prepared”
We are living in a dimmed version of reality, designed for growth.
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2. The Telestial World as a Matrix of
Learning
The Lord placed us in a world of:
▪︎ opposition (2 Nephi 2:11)
▪︎ corruption (Romans 8:21)
▪︎ veiled understanding (Isaiah 25:7)
▪︎ probation and testing (Abraham 3:25)
This is not the final state of existence.
It is the lowest bandwidth version of reality, where eternal intelligences learn eternal laws.
The scriptures call this world:
▪︎ “a shadow” (Hebrews 8:5)
▪︎ “a vapor” (James 4:14)
▪︎ “a schoolmaster” (Galatians 3:24)
It is a matrix—
a temporary environment where God shapes His children.
3. The Celestial Kingdom as the Real World
The celestial realm is described as:
▪︎ “a fullness of joy” (Psalm 16:11)
▪︎ “a fullness of light” (D&C 88:67)
▪︎ “a house of order” (D&C 132:8)
▪︎ “the spirits of just men made perfect”
In that world:
▪︎ Spirit and matter are inseparably connected
▪︎ Knowledge is perfect (1 Corinthians 13:12)
▪︎ Glory is like the sun (1 Corinthians 15:41)
▪︎ God’s children inherit all things
That is the real world.
This is the preparatory one.
4. The Science Behind the Testimony
The Lord’s universe is consistent.
His spiritual laws and His physical laws do not contradict each other.
A. Energy Never Dies
Physics:
Energy cannot be created or destroyed.
Scripture:
“The spirit… was in the beginning with God” (D&C 93:29).
“Intelligence… was not created or made”
(D&C 93:29).
Your spirit is eternal energy + eternal intelligence.
B. Information Is Eternal
Physics:
Information is never lost; it is encoded in energy.
Scripture:
“Record of heaven” (Moses 6:61).
“Books were opened” (Revelation 20:12).
“Every idle word… shall be accounted for” (Matthew 12:36).
Your identity is eternal information preserved in divine energy.
C. Light Is the Fundamental Law
Physics:
Light carries information.
Light reveals truth.
Light obeys unchanging laws.
"God is light" (1 John 1:5).
“In thy light shall we see light” (Psalm 36:9).
“The light of Christ… is the law by which all things are governed” (D&C 88:13).
Light is the bridge between science and scripture.
5. Our Destiny:
Kings, Queens, and Creators in His Image
The scriptures declare:
▪︎ “Ye are gods; and all of you are children of
the most High” (Psalm 82:6)
▪︎ “Heirs of God, and joint‑heirs with Christ”
▪︎ “To him that overcometh will I grant to sit
with me in my throne” (Revelation 3:21)
▪︎ “They shall be priests of God and of Christ,
and shall reign” (Revelation 20:6)
This is not symbolic.
This is the covenant destiny of exalted beings.
When we are made celestial:
▪︎ We receive His image (Genesis 1:26)
▪︎ We receive His glory (John 17:22)
▪︎ We receive His work (Moses 1:39)
We become builders of worlds,
co‑creators with אלוהים,
operating in His light, His law, and His love.
6. The Unified Witness
Scripture and science speak the same truth:
▪︎ This telestial world is a matrix of formation
▪︎ The celestial world is the true, unveiled
reality
▪︎ We are eternal intelligences learning to
become like God
▪︎ Light, energy, and law testify of His order
▪︎ Our destiny is exaltation, creation, and
divine stewardship
This is the pattern.
This is the doctrine.
This is the promise.
The Womb of the World:
My Testimony of Spirit, Light, and the Telestial Matrix of Our Formation
Brothers and sisters, I share this testimony with humility, reverence, and gratitude to the Father. I speak these things not to elevate myself, but to witness of His mercy, His reality, and His work in the lives of His children. What I have experienced has shaped my discipleship, my repentance, my service, and my understanding of why we are here in this telestial world—the womb of our becoming.
I have stood at the edge of life more than once. I have been carried into hospitals with gunshot wounds, stabbings, and medical trauma. Three of those moments became near‑death experiences that changed the entire trajectory of my soul.
1. The First Experience
Leaving the Body
The first time, my spirit—my ghost, my soul, whatever word we use for the eternal intelligence within us—fell out of my body. I rose above myself and watched the medical staff working on me. I watched my own body being struck with the defibrillator paddles. And when I slammed back into my body, I woke with tears.
Not because of fear.
But because I had tasted my natural state.
I felt weightless.
No gravity.
No pressure.
No veil.
No heaviness of the flesh.
I felt free in a way I had never known in mortality.
And when I returned, I wept because I longed for that purity again.
2. The Second Experience
The Light and the Choice
The second time I died, I traveled through what felt like a wormhole—colors, patterns, a kaleidoscope of movement. It felt like years, though only seconds passed in mortality. At the end of that passage, I saw a great Light in the distance, and smaller lights drawing me toward them.
I did not see faces, but I knew them.
I felt their love.
I felt their warmth.
I felt their familiarity.
The smaller lights were part of the Greater Light.
And the Greater Light communicated with me—not with a voice, but with pure knowledge, like truth being downloaded into my soul. The love I felt was overwhelming, holy, and beyond mortal language.
The Light gave me a choice:
“Stay now, and you will have to return again and start over.
Return now, and you will be rewarded.”
I understood instantly that returning—continuing forward in mortality—was the righteous path. The natural path. The path of growth. And so I chose to return.
I woke in a hospital bed, and again, I wept.
3. The Third Experience
The Most Real of All
The third time was the most real experience of my life. More real than this phone in my hand. More real than anything I have ever touched or seen in the flesh. I cannot share everything—by direction of the Father—but I can share this:
I experienced what felt like a thousand years.
I walked in a place where water did not make me wet.
I saw my pre‑mortal existence.
I met prophets.
I met family.
I felt the holiness of that realm.
It was home.
And I knew I could not return there permanently until my mission here is complete. My longing to return is real, but it is tied to obedience, endurance, and finishing the work the Father has entrusted to me.
4. My Mission, My Agency, and the Narrow
Path
My life has been colorful, unstable, and full of mistakes. But every wound, every trial, every wrong turn has prepared me for the work the Lord will ask of me. I still have agency. I still must choose the narrow path daily. But I know the holiness of God. I know His glory. I know His love. And that knowledge anchors me.
Part of my calling—whatever form it takes—is to expose the workings of mammon, the adversary’s influence on the natural man, and the ancient patterns of Baálim that still operate in the world today. Not with anger. Not with pride. But with clarity, humility, and love.
5. The Fellowship of Saints
And I testify with gratitude that I do not walk this path alone.
The Fellowship of Saints in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter‑day Saints has strengthened me. Their support, their ordinances, their teachings, their fellowship, and their love have given me the spiritual growth I need to move forward in my mission. Through them, the Lord has given me structure, accountability, revelation, and community.
I am grateful for the restored gospel.
I am grateful for priesthood covenants.
I am grateful for the Saints who walk beside me.
I am grateful for the Savior who leads me.
6. My Witness
I testify that the telestial world is a matrix—a womb of formation.
I testify that our spirits are eternal intelligences made of God’s light.
I testify that the celestial world is the real world, the world we came from and the world we are returning to.
I testify that Jesus Christ lives, that He loves us, and that His mercy is deeper than any wound we carry.
I share this testimony with joy, meekness, and reverence. I know my Redeemer liveth, I believe His plan. I know that the Prophets, Leaders, Apostles and the Seventy are ordained by Heavenly Father, under the direction of Jesus Christ the Nazarene, and are guided by the Holy Ghost the Comforter.
In the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
A Petition to the Fellowship of Saints
Brothers and sisters, before I close, I offer a humble petition to the Fellowship of Saints in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter‑day Saints. I speak this with gratitude and meekness, knowing that the Lord strengthens His children through the unity of His covenant people.
In my patriarchal blessing, I was counseled to anchor my life in Moroni chapter 7—the chapter that teaches us the pure pattern of charity, the divine gift that “never faileth,” the gift that refines our motives, softens our hearts, and aligns our desires with Christ. I was also directed to study Doctrine and Covenants 121, the Lord’s revelation on persuasion, long‑suffering, gentleness, meekness, and love unfeigned—the very qualities that shape a disciple into a servant fit for the Master’s use.
These two chapters—Moroni 7 and D&C 121—are the pillars the Lord has placed before me to build the character required for the challenges ahead. And I know I cannot grow into these qualities alone.
So I ask, with reverence and sincerity, for your prayers and your fellowship as I strive to develop the charity Moroni taught and the priesthood attributes the Lord revealed in section 121. I ask for your support as I work to purify my heart, discipline my mind, and strengthen my spirit for the work the Father will require of me.
I do not speak of the details of that work, only that part of my stewardship is to stand against the influence of mammon and the subtle workings of Baálim that prey upon the natural man in these latter days. This requires clarity, humility, and a heart anchored in Christlike love. It requires the very virtues Moroni and Joseph Smith taught us to cultivate.
Your prayers matter.
Your examples matter.
Your testimonies matter.
Your fellowship strengthens me more than you know.
I am grateful for the Saints who surround me.
I am grateful for the priesthood brethren who minister with patience and compassion.
I am grateful for the sisters whose faith and charity illuminate the path.
I am grateful for every covenant‑keeping soul who lifts, encourages, and walks the narrow way with me.
May we grow together in the charity of
May we walk together in the meekness of D&C 121.
May we stand together in the light of Christ, exposing darkness not with anger, but with love unfeigned.
I offer this petition with joy, humility, and reverence. I know my Redeemer liveth, I believe His plan. I know that the Prophets, Leaders, Apostles and the Seventy are ordained by Heavenly Father, under the direction of Jesus Christ the Nazarene, and are guided by the Holy Ghost the Comforter.
In the sacred name of Jesus Christ. Amen.
A Psalm of Return and Restoration
O Lord, God of my beginning and my becoming,
I lift my voice in gratitude for Thy mercy,
for Thy patience,
and for the light that has followed me through every shadow.
Thou hast preserved my spirit in the days of danger,
and called me back when the veil grew thin.
Thou hast shown me that life is Thy gift,
and that every breath is a step toward Thee.
Teach me to walk in charity,
to labor in meekness,
to stand in holy places with clean hands and a willing heart.
Let the virtues of Moroni’s promise
and the gentleness of Thy priesthood law
take root in my soul.
Strengthen me for the work appointed,
that I may expose the chains of mammon
and the whisperings of Baálim
with nothing but Thy light,
Thy truth,
and Thy love unfeigned.
Bless the Saints who walk beside me—
their prayers, their fellowship, their covenant strength.
Bind us together in the unity of Christ,
that we may lift one another
until all are restored in Thee.
And when my proving is finished,
when my stewardship is complete,
receive me again into Thy presence—
into the world that is real,
the world of glory,
the world from which I came.
For Thou art my Light and my Law,
my Redeemer and my Rest,
the First and the Last,
and the One who leads Thy children home.
Amen.
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